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Wednesday, July 27, 2005

11:31 PM

woo! back from a run today! and a little workout on the chin-up bar... and while waiting for the lift to go home i was about to burst into song... until an old man appeared in the corner of my eye! HOW EMBARRASSING can. hahahahahaha... it was so awkward in the lift after that! hahahahahaha...

'You Set Me Free' has been on my mind and lips... anyone has the lyrics? it's by sandi patty...

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5:50 PM

Hillsong United - Tell The World

Don't want to stand here and shout Your praise
And walk away and forget Your Name
I'll stand for You if it's all I do
Cause there is none that compares to You

And all I want in this lifetime is YOU!
And all I want in this whole world is YOU! YOU! YOU!

Chorus
Tell the world that Jesus lives
Tell the world that, tell the world that
Tell the world that He died for them
Tell the world that He lives again

No longer I but Christ in me
Cause it's the truth that sets me free
How could this world be a better place?
But by Thy mercy and by Thy grace

And all I want in this lifetime is YOU!
And all I want in this whole world is YOU! YOU! YOU!

(chorus x2)

C'mon c'mon we'll tell the world about YOU! (x7)

(chorus x2)

C'mon c'mon we'll tell the world about YOU!
(Tell the world that, tell the world that!) (x4)

About YOU!

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Tuesday, July 26, 2005

10:26 PM

Sandi Patty - You Set Me Free

You set me free to run through fields of laughter
And to sing as though I have no yesterday
You set me free from my befores and afters
From a debt I know I'll never pay
Father You father me ever so patiently
You give me wings to fly
When You set me free

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Monday, July 25, 2005

4:46 PM

I'M BACK!

hahahahahaaha... my com died on me! the CPU fan started it's whirrrr-click! whirrrr-click! then it spluttered and REFUSED to work. now i've got a 2nd-hand one inside from SLS! woohoo!

yesterday's service was fantastic. i want more!!! i want the good part that mary chose :D and my driving licence, my lamborghi*i marci*lago, my volks*agen vitr*olet, and ALL these things shall be added to me!!! wheeee...

jamming after that! it was great and just love singing to my Daddy!!! haahahahhahaha... thanks to all of u guys (and gals) who came together for a brilliant time of praise and worship!

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Saturday, July 23, 2005

11:50 PM

i will charge my phone. i will charge my phone. i will charge my phone.

why? a thought of the mind. work. Man's work.
how? asking God for a solution. God's work.

Lord... i know not what to do... but You direct me... give me Your peace... i want Your shalom peace...


shalom

1) completeness, soundness, welfare, peace
a) completeness (in number)
b) safety, soundness (in body)
c) welfare, health, prosperity
d) peace, quiet, tranquillity, contentment
e) peace, friendship
1) of human relationships
2) with God especially in covenant relationship
f) peace (from war)
g) peace (as adjective)


it feels like we can't click anymore.

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12:14 AM

i am SEATED at the right hand of Abba with Jesus...

and now i STAND in the armour of God:
the girt of truth, the breastplate of righteousness, the sandals of the gospel of peace, the shield of faith, the helmet of salvation, the sword of the Spirit and PRAYING IN THE SPIRIT

WALKING in love, walking in peace, walking in grace.

before finally RUNNING with God for my imperishable crown!

anyway that wasn't the msg from today's cg. hahahahaha... this week God has spoken so much to me... from bs yesterday to cg today. i realised that this week i've been relying on self-effort to arrange to come down to listen to His word... very much like Martha was busy with 1001 other things and ignoring the good part. it's so easy to become like Martha and forget about the good part that Mary chose... and that was a part of what pastor preached. only today i hit the revelation... me arranging my own time? ME? stop. that's not right. previously i've always just claimed my attendance by faith and it worked EVERYTIME... hmmmm.

regarding my driving... hahahaha... how timely that the msg for yesterday's bs was, yes, that's right, WHAT I DO NOT HAVE, I WILL HAVE!! that msg really got me strengthened... and today's cg? wow... more revelations of His love for me... it started off this: asking God WHY is a state of mind, a product of the brain. now, asking God HOW is to simply trust Him for a solution! hold fast to Daddy's grace in my life... and see the supernatural, exceedingly abundant favour in my life! life transforming! woohoo!! Daddy.. fall afresh on me.. let me have fresher and deeper revelations of Your love for me!!!

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Friday, July 22, 2005

12:33 AM

i got 42 points. it's so laughable i just want to roll on the floor and occasionally bang my head on the floor. lol. ok i'm kidding.

i want to move ahead... hahahaha.. but i couldn't help think back on why i did so terribly. anyway i was in the toilet 3 times this morning... not exactly the best of starts to a day. bah. i'm totally healed. no peace taking the test. don't feel like talking about it.

oc talked to me... he noticed i'm alien to the platoon, which i agree. it's been some time since i last sat down and chatted with them. what's unnoticed is after bengen i suddenly got so much work thrown at me and i worked till i nearly died in that 3-4 weeks. in that time i was practically around all the time... so is it so wrong to take a break and get a breather? Daddy... no matter how public this blog is (which it isn't lol)... You see my heart... You defend me..

but yes i kinda miss my platoon guys. heh.

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Wednesday, July 20, 2005

6:40 PM

woohoo. finally home. it's the end of the day for me... and the bus journey back? definitely rates as one of the worst i've ever had.

had driving today - my final revision lesson before the test tmr... Daddy... You want to give me the licence more than i want it... my confidence is in YOU! not in my works... afterall, Jesus in me, the hope of glory! let me see more of Jesus driving! woohoo! Daddy... You know the desires of my heart to drive... and into Your hands, i commit the test tmr :)

met dearie after driving. hahahaha...had lunch... marinara! love it... then we walked around and window shopped until she ran out of ideas for her window shopping and decided instead to shop for me! hahahaha... so anyway it was great just walking around and poking fun mercilessly at the nz natural ice cream counter!

dinner coming up with dad and sis and an*y. :D i want to attend bs tmr! Daddy bring me there ok? heh... You make all things possible... i want to be in Your house!!!

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Sunday, July 17, 2005

8:48 PM

i'm finally dragging myself to blog. lol. too tired e past few days.

let's see... hmmm... ahhh yes. friday was bs, went with dearie. along the way we met ppl from her cg and i invited ys. praise Jesus... although i was kinda tired and was on the brink of falling asleep several times... but i receive! i must say the msg was much deeper... hahahahaha... so it was more thought-invoking and took me longer to understand... even now i don't fully understand! i gave up taking notes from the onstart when it became obvious that it was gonna be difficult to... i'll get the cd and listen to it again! hahahahahaha... oh yes. i went for driving earlier on and boy, was i rusty or what... it's really going to be a testimony unto my Daddy when i pass this coming thursday...

sat morning was spent at rj... yes, doing that nat day dance. we finally finished learning the whole sequence. i lost my cool once - shouting at those unwilling to cooperate and pick up the dance. so a flash of fury escaped me... ahh well, no more in condemnation! praise Jesus i have a Saviour :) so moving right along... there was campus. dearie didn't attend due to as*c commitments. there were fireworks at the esplanade as the whole horde of us ate BK in front of LJS. hahahahahaha... but it was really short. met dearie after that. went cof*ee b*an for some light supper (actually iced chocolate and mocha). sent dearie home..lingered for a while and went home. heh. oh, PRAISE JESUS yl's grandma got saved hours before she slept and joined Daddy. it was great listening to yl's testimony over the phone... i'm so happy for your grandma brother! hahahahaha... there's just so much light in your testimony and it's so encouraging to all of us who have family members who haven't been saved yet... remember to write in to e church on this ok? hahahaha...

today! attended 2nd. it was like a journey of personal revelation of the verse in Colossians 1:27 - "Christ in you, the hope of glory". Jesus is in me! woohoo... that means all that He is, I AM! so this coming week i face all my challenges with confidence - not confidence in my flesh but confidence in JESUS, my Daddy, my Abba. my flesh undoubtedly fails all the time but my Jesus? how can He fail? He did a perfect work on the Cross for me! perfect! woohoo!!! went around shopping with dearie at bug*s area. bought her the white spag she'd been eyeing and a pair of earrings since her other pair had one that mysteriously dropped off. :) met dad after that at parag*n to find out why my hp bill cost $256 this month. hahahahahahahahha... in the end we put it down to my pre-bengen (to him, pre-overseas exercise) prep - handing over my duties, my work and ensuring that things continue working while i was gone for bengen... hahahahahaha...


Down at Your Feet (No Higher Calling)

There is no higher calling
No greater honour
Than to bow and kneel
Before Your throne
I'm amazed by Your glory
Embraced by Your mercy
Oh Lord I live to worship You

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Thursday, July 14, 2005

11:46 PM

well before i forget, let's review and let me whine and give my 2 cents worth of the few issues of buggeration lately.

first and foremost, the cdo incident that happened as recently as yesterday. apparently there was a heliborne mishap, resulting in 2 deaths. these days there's so much death in the army.. hmmm. ominous isn't it? but well, due to this incident, all training has been ceased and vehicle coverage terminated by higher HQ. as a result i can't get my safety vehicles for tomorrow's physical test and sat's remedial training. which is just fine with me... hahahahahaha...

lavish taps, first and business class, 12-month bonuses, a $25k-a-mth paycheck, vandalism and a lawsuit over and done with in 2 days. that's fantastic. now add to that his resignation amidst a 21 000-strong petition calling for it and the withdrawal of mrs gct from the committee. that's really all the necessary ingredients for a blockbuster film... but anyway he's done the right thing i feel, let go and let there be a lease of new life in the organisation.

and finally, on that murderer-cum-rapist. with all the sordid details out in the open, you wonder about what he said - the game went awry when the victim started oozing blood. so he strangled her... and what's this about cutting her clothes and sticking his finger in some place? makes no sense right... does he take us for morons? after smothering the victim you gotta do such a thing to make it look like a rape... for what? really...

ok i'm done. hahahahahahaha.

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9:19 PM

who's the birthday girl? 

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ok. this photo is super LOOOOOONG ago. hahahaha... 

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 9:15 PM

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back early today... hahahahaha... supposed to pick up dearie at chin*se gardens where they just concluded their camp. so anyway i decided to be early and left camp an hour and a half earlier than our meeting time, taking my time! well... thank God for the wisdom to do so - i missed my bus due to the peak hour crowd but praise be to Jesus, the wait wasn't long until the next one came along! woohoo!

so it happened that i arrived at 1815hrs - 45min earlier instead of the projected one hour i'd predicted. hahahah.. God is good.. all the time! well anyway in the end i went home... lol... apparently dearie's group wanted dinner, which was fine by me... hahahahahaha... and off i went to hunt for my dad for dinner... and we ate at our usual hangout where even the coffeeshop aunties RECOGNISE him. we even bluffed them that i was my dad's younger brother... hahahahahahhaa...

driving revision tomorrow! the 1st of 3 lessons coming to pass with TP next thursday... my Jesus has given me my licence! Amen! hahahahahaha... bs tmr! i can't wait!!!

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returned from another 3.2km run... slower than the previous timing by 1 second... how am i gonna hit under 14? Lord! help me!!

these few days have been spent at e carnival. ok i had a medical appt on monday... heh. yesterday was at carnival directing my platoon with the use of the camo nets and also to cover safety for the coy. had a glimpse of the toy soldier segment that NP was putting up... no comments, really. hahahahahaha... a real pity the freefalling segment was cancelled due to inclement weather... sigh... that was the highlight of the DAY! bleah. but praise be to Jesus, it was CAT 1 till 1730 and hence the item had to be cancelled... oh well Jesus has greater plans ahead for me!

today was even worse. supposed to finish the rest of the camo nets today but apparently the tonn*r never made it in time in the morning! so lo and behold it made its dazzling appearance in the evening and e coy hurriedly finished the job. at this point in time all e key players in the carnival had a coord meeting and that was a marathon meeting in itself - only coming to an abrupt halt as it was getting late - 2000hrs! hahahaahh...so anyway dinner was lor 8 bak kut teh.. which is still totally fantastic!

nothing to do in camp tomorrow. shall i go late?

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listening to 'kan wa eh qiu'... actually i don't understand 95% of it - the only lines i understand are the first two lines of the chorus - translating to something like, hold my hand, my Lord ahhH~

but there's just such a strong anointing in that song :)

down at mari*a south today helping them fix camo nets for the grand stands. just when the highlight (freefalling cdos) of the day was coming, the skies decided to bestow CAT 1 on us. for the unlearned, that's the highest stage of lightning risk that can happen - meaning get into shelter or be struck with lightning! bah.

dinner at gold*n mile. visited godma and bought some marksmanship badges. heh.

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back from jamming! boy was it good... hahahahahaha... to all who went (hogan, kev, josh, jess, edmund, nat, char, esther, jo, aiwei).. THANKS A LOT! it was like, totally enjoyable although i probably sang off key 100 times. bwahaahahaha...

but with God all things are possible and GOOD!

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friday cg was at josh*a's... it's a really great place to have cg! very nice place...plus a mini schnauzer! hahahahaha...one of my future dogs.. supper was at al-azhar's with a select few - kev, fer, nat and eun*ce. we tried an assortment of pratas, kang kong and rice. boy was i still hungry after that...

sat was really crap at YJ. apparently oc already knew we were going down to DANCE. yes, that's right. nat day MASS DANCE. but he knew better than to tell any of us the truth... knowing full well if we did none of us would come down! hahahahaha... fine... wisdom on his part... but the place is really small... they don't have the facilities to cater to such a large crowd! plus with the whole coy coming down next week, i really dunno how they're gonna handle us... can't they go VJ? nice airconditioned hall abt triple the size... bleah. so anyway it turned out that we smoked out an hour and a half earlier than the stipulated 2pm endex and i hurriedly dashed home to bathe and have lunch and go down to meet up for ns cg. it was a great time of fellowship, not to mention the longest cg ever! hahahahahaa...3 solid hours! we subsequently had dinner at FnC but it wasn't exactly the freshest thing i ate that day... terrible! bleah. but such is my love for seafood... especially PRAWNS.

and on this blessed day that my Daddy made for me today... looking forward to attending 4th! woohoo! should i join in for jamming... quite funny. go there really to clap along. hahahahahaha..

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i had a weird dream. lol. there's a certain er*c who went AWOL in my unit. i dreamt that it's the same er*c from my college days. i was even TALKING to him about it in...DB! lol. it was like, HUH! hahahahaahahahahahaha...

received a call earlier on. 10am at YJ tomorrow. apparently we're meeting the motivators for Nat Day. argh! i hope they don't take too long... i want to attend my cg! always so last minute! -_-

cg later! feeding time :D

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Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

I disagree with the education part! I love studying MATHS.

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seems like a long time since my last post. heh. well anyway was DO on tuesday, meaning i smoked out of the loading up of the stands on wednesday..

an eventful week. sharing, edification with my brothers and sisters were part and parcel of the week... and that has really strengthened me! Daddy... i really want to just sing Your praises and worship You all day... as i felt after service on Sunday... really.. don't wanna stop singing... (ok i can't sing well. lol. it's BLESSED! bwahahahahahaha!)

it feels great to be able to attend both CGs...my double portion! and Lord... prepare me for greater growth.. let me sow bountifully into the lives of others :D love You Daddy!

and today was even more special! hahaahaha...beautiful beautiful artwork from dearie... what a surprise! it's really nice! i love it!! thanks dear!! heh heh... pardon the excessive exclamation marks...

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the old jc east cg. great to see y'all again! 

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lazing at the lobby. heh. 

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the benjamin generation! 

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blessed edmund! 

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i dunno what we were trying to do. heh. 

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friday was well spent having dinner with dearie and dad, after which we visited my godma who's a healthy 92 but still an unbeliever... which made me think - she's 92 and frail. how much more me, with God as my Abba Father, at that age? woohoo!!! my youth is renewed like that of the eagle, and i shall run and not fall!

saturday morning wasted at the bank. should've known i needed my IC to change my bank book. -_- wisdom wisdom! multiplied unto me! hahahaha... oh well, lunch was k*tong l*ksa and it was GOOD! only downside was too little food... accompanied dearie to r*ffles hospital. praise Jesus she's alright! yes dear...rebuke that in Jesus' name... for by His stripes u were healed!!! totally, completely and freely!!! He who did not spare His son for u... what will He not give u? Jesus loves u dear! u shall be a testimony to e world..and to that doc...

so there was campus, and miraculously i stayed AWAKE. hahahaha... pretty good sermon today!

went to BaB for dinner after that, celebrating a fellow sister's bday... blessed bday sis!!! first we shocked her with pandan cake... b4 showing her the real one... hahahahahahaha... our Daddy keep u and bless u... according to the riches of His grace... with His countenance (smiling approval) on u at all times... and with His SHALOM peace which surpasses all understanding, guide u.... woohoo!

went for 3.2km run around e area. timing was bad. but Lord! You make all things perfect in Your time!!! Daddy... hahahahaha... bring me back to my cadet days and beyond in terms of physical fitness! exceedingly abundantly above all that i ask for!!! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!

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